It has been 20 days since I updated. I’ve made the homemade toothpaste, laundry detergent, dishwasher detergent, and household cleaners. Honestly, most of us are really happy with the outcome of all of them.
I also tried some nearly zero waste shopping at a grocery store about 1 hour and 15 minutes away. There is another store in another city that is almost 30 minutes closer. I’ll try it out to see if I like it as well or better. I made out a base menu for us too. This way, making a shopping list will be easier and I’ll only have to make that trip to the organic store 2x a month.
I started some of my seeds. I’ll be starting some more tomorrow. I have limited room, so I don’t know how many I’ll be able to plant. I haven’t hard core planned out my garden yet, but that is rather normal for me. It’s an organic process for me. I can be a bit whimsical.
As for other parts of life, this past year has been full of questions concerning our faith. The simple stuff is pretty easy, since it is in the Bible. However, for whatever reason, church itself has turned out to be somewhat complicated. People, actually, make it complicated. I’m part of that people too. Eric and I are just trying to figure out what it is that we need to be doing, and why, and where, and when.
Since April, our spiritual life has been a process of sorting out doctrines and practices that we don’t like in churches. I won’t get into the details, but we have settled within ourselves that we are those that believe in a simple, reach your circle kind of faith. This matches our desire to have a simple, grassroots existence in all things.
Also, since April, we contemplated selling our farm to go into ministry. We thought about moving to Florida to get training, about sitting under a ministry in another city, getting more Bible school, going to get a Bachelor’s degree. These have all fallen to the wayside. Our hearts are here in the prairies of Illinois. Our lives are linked with a Presbyterian church that we’ve already left twice. This wasn’t because we had any issues with them. We just thought that we were more charismatic than that. Or more Pentecostal. While we still believe in all of the gifts of the Holy Spirit, we don’t seek after them, like so many with that mindset do. We’ve found that the leadership model and basic doctrines of Presbyterianism fit closely with ours, but not exactly. Closer than what we were raised with though.
We are going to stay on our farm, and steward it. We are going to garden, and preserve. I am going to just enjoy making art in different forms. I’m so VERY MUCH DONE with the whole music business rat race. When I raise money to make another album, I’ll make another album. When the door opens for me to release two songs that are already recorded, I’ll release them. I’m not interested in fame or sales or image or competition or jealousy or drama. I’m interested in a message and all people.
For the time being, artistically-speaking, I’m going to write poetry, learn to sketch, create video art, do some photography, and be MORE whimsical… while being a better steward. I’m sticking closer to home. WE are sticking closer to home, those of us Kopps who aren’t leaving the nest. There is a sense of rightness and peace in this. There is a knowing that this is the best decision for us. Ah, peace.