I spent a lot of my 20s and 30s eating low carb, because I was trying to be thinner. I had a lot of stress, so I never really got a lot smaller in the process. Mid-way through 2017, I finally had enough of the stress of watching what I eat. I haven’t really gained any weight. Much like before when I was stressing out about it, I have pretty much stayed the same. If we are going to really be honest, I’m about 3-4 pounds lighter than when I was trying really hard! Funny.
Then I was thinking about how expensive meat is, and how expensive produce is. Really, just how expensive everything is now, in general. This made me thankful for our farm. I have the ability to really provide a lot of veggies and fruit for our family. Someday that will even include nuts too. We did get rid of our chickens, because we were having issues containing them where we wanted them, and we also wanted to take a vacation. You have chickens and you don’t have people close-by that you trust to feed them for you? You don’t take vacations. We’ve not really been on vacation as a family since 2015. We won’t have many more years for “family” vacations, because a couple of our kids are adults, and will eventually begin starting their own families.
Rabbit-trail. Sorry. Back to food! So, now I am trying to not stress about counting carbs, or making two different meals. I asked myself what I did want. Here is what I came up with.:
1. Avoid as many chemicals in my food without going hardcore about it.
This means stop eating out as much. This means planning ahead better, something that isn’t a strength of mine. This means trying to make most things from scratch. I’ve begun to implement this a little at a time.
2. Eat cheaper, but healthier.
Our ancestors ate seasonally. In fact, most people ate seasonally until the rise of the super-market. I bought a few used seasonal cookbooks. Most of them were helpful and relevant to what I’m hoping to accomplish. The best way to know your food is healthy is to grow it yourself. I know what is in the produce from our farm. I’ve never sprayed chemicals on my plants. Also, say I bought a package of kale seed for $2-3. Once planted, I would have a relentless supply of it all season long. One bunch of organic kale costs that at the store. I save hundreds of dollars with one package of seed! That goes for any seed I plant.
3. Enjoy life, and eat what I want.
I spent two decades watching what I ate. Sometimes successfully and sometimes not. I struggled with self-control. Weirdly, now that I’m permitting myself to make whatever sounds good, I actually have no desire to over-indulge myself on food. I feel more at peace because of this. This sounds weird, but it is true. Maybe I’ll be a really fat, old lady. Don’t care. I’ll be a HAPPY, really fat, old lady. It’s the inside that counts. That’s currently what I’m working on.
Now it is nearing February, and I’m needing to start looking into seeds. I think I might actually start some indoors on our back porch this year. Usually I plant direct to ground with everything. It’s that time of year again. Less reading and more doing, until the peak of busyness in August and September. Then it slows down to a trickle to the season of rest that winter brings.
I’m enjoying being seasonal. 🙂